Hey everyone! I wanted to share my journal entry from a couple days ago. I hope this helps someone ❤️
I was sitting reflecting and God brought something back to my attention.
A couple of years ago I was believing God for some major things. I went to a big conference in Atlanta. I went with expectation. Not in expectation of God’s presence so much but of God speaking to me through prophecy. Specifically through one of the speakers so I could get the clarity I needed for next moves. I remember things not going according to plan. My sons had to go with us to the conference and they were not behaving at all. I was sooo confused because I just knew God had a word for me at this conference. I even cried in the hallway because I was banking on it so badly. Driving home I just kept wondering what in the world was the point of going there.
Fast forward to 2023 I have been having to repent for seeking a word from other sources other than God himself. I was so hungry for a word from God but I didn’t seek Him for myself to find it. I hoped and prayed that it would happen in this grand way at a conference. I had to repent for that thing. Nobody is going to give you clarity like the Lord Himself will. He wants us to come to Him like children. I really do believe that if we rely on people more than God that He turns off our access to people or even shuts the mouths of the prophets we’re trying to pull on. At that point people have become our compass and not God. He wants us to come to Him. That rings more true than ever to me right now. And it grieves me that I did this to God. He has been there the whole time. Getting me through the whole time. Even my dream life was foretelling and mostly warning me of things ahead to pray against. He was speaking the whole time. He is my compass.